once, i was young and reckless
Let me elaborate. I think I need to explain it to myself more than to the person reading this though.
I look back and remember all the things I heard and all the things I felt. Sometimes it was all just heavy and sad and worried and paranoid, but somehow, that was the right path to take. I wrote the best things back then, stories and poems. Although I never shared all of them, they were the best things to ever come out of my brain. That was part of my freedom then, and I never really understood it. And through all that, I found myself and everything just came into place and shaped me to be who I am today...
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Saturday, June 9, 2012
It's funny how I've never felt freer than I do now. But then I remember what I was like in the past, and I realize I was somehow free too, back then. I just didn't know it. It doesn't make sense, but somehow in my head, it does.Let me elaborate. I think I need to explain it to myself more than to the person reading this though.
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Labels: adolescent years, changes, growing up, I JUST NEED THIS DOCUMENTED SOMEWHERE THANK YOU, learning, life, midnight thoughts, ramblings, reckless, stupid, young
Midnight Thoughts
Sunday, January 8, 2012
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| Photo by Nathan Presley |
It's 4 o'clock in the morning and here I am again, wide awake and dreaming. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I know I have to sleep or I at least have to get the urgent and important things done and out of the way. But in the end, I only succeed at doing leisurely things.
For now, there is a nagging feeling in my gut that tells me I'm fucked, but right about now I don't care. it's only at this time of the day that I can truly have peace and quiet.
I'm admittedly a nocturnal person; I just can't help it. The dark night brings some kind of energy and spirit that isn't loud. It's something mysterious and lonely, and it keeps me awake. I dream of city lights and an urban escape. Somehow, there's a sense of freedom the evening time evokes in me.
Maybe it's because it's in the dark that some people truly come alive, away from the bright light where everyone judges them. The darkness masks everybody so that someone can become a nobody or just a different entity altogether. It's an escape, a getaway; a quick vacation from reality. And as the daylight breaks, we come back up to the real world.
. . . hmm, I'm a rambling mess again. I bet there'll be more of these though.
For now, there is a nagging feeling in my gut that tells me I'm fucked, but right about now I don't care. it's only at this time of the day that I can truly have peace and quiet.
I'm admittedly a nocturnal person; I just can't help it. The dark night brings some kind of energy and spirit that isn't loud. It's something mysterious and lonely, and it keeps me awake. I dream of city lights and an urban escape. Somehow, there's a sense of freedom the evening time evokes in me.
Maybe it's because it's in the dark that some people truly come alive, away from the bright light where everyone judges them. The darkness masks everybody so that someone can become a nobody or just a different entity altogether. It's an escape, a getaway; a quick vacation from reality. And as the daylight breaks, we come back up to the real world.
. . . hmm, I'm a rambling mess again. I bet there'll be more of these though.
Labels: midnight thoughts, night, photo, ramblings
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